Move on

Like a very cliche entry right? But why? Well, move on is a very common moment to all human being and since I'm apparently a human, I also have to endure it!

Move on is like the hardest thing a human need to face and some even thinks its like taking their life away. Yet, some people believe to move on is like changing their shirt. Personally, to me move on need this three things; effort, time and most importantly a good substitute!

But alas, speaking is easier than making it done. I also have a problem to move on. After done all that three things, all the effort, all the time and also finding a good substitute, I still won't budge since I entangled to that person.

Honestly, yeah, it was truly my first love. Where all the love bugs all around u, the love in the air, the worlds is yours and ure at the top of the world. Suddenly, it all crashes down and u lost all hope. And its feel like the end.

That's how it end but after enduring all the pain I'm still hoping for something impossible to happen; wishing all the memories to be alive again.

That's where move on needs to take it action. A moment where u need to rethinking and rerouting your path to the other person. I tried a lot and sometimes I almost giving up doing that. A lot of time where I almost completely move on, a simple hello from that person would make me back to square one..

Shiitt!! How to move on from u!!! ='(


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Thinking about the future

Hell yeah!
Everyone like always thinks for their future. Like, what we will be in the future or what is our future job, who we will get married to, and stuff like that. Since we cannot predict the future,the least we can do is just to think about them.

So, the future I want to think right now is marriage. Yes, just marriage!

Getting married is really a big questions for me. In my mind is, married is like the full stop of everything! No more single, full of commitment, have two mums and two dads, handling with my future's wife pms, and all the marriage stuff! And that's just little of it, there's a lot of other thing that can be mentioned by the definition of marriage.

Its not that I am skeptical about all the idea of getting married. Surely, one day I also will get married and experience all of it. And that is what people call as asam garam kehidupan, right? We once has already past through our life as a kids and then now we are going to the other phase of our life which is marriage.
My plan is I will never get married before my age reach 30. Still, 30 is just way too early for me. Because, there is a lot of other thing that I want to accomplished first before I get married. Stuff like, I want to help my parents, make them feels like they are the happiest person on earth, send them to haji and lastly, I want to fulfill my dreams which is to open up a restaurant! =P

The other thing is, when I get married, there will be no kids for us. Yes! No son nor daughter. I love kids but its not for me. To me, having children is either it will be a curse or a bless. With the harsh environment and the corrupted world they going to live in,its hard for them to survive. Plus, its troubled me to think that what if my kids will be part of the social illness in the future. Be a homosexual, taking drugs or be a mat rempit for example. And so, the best solution I manage to create is not to have one!

All I dream it going to be is I will commit my life to my wife and my future wife needs to do the same for me. Both of us will go through our life together with no one else. It just two of us! That is the real definition of happily ever after for me..=)
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Qur'an

Let ask a simple question, who reads them? Every muslim will say yes to it.

But let ask who understand them? Only a little say yes to it.

That is the reality of the muslim today. We said out loud we are muslim but the fact is in our entire life, we never bother to know the meaning of the content in Qur'an itself. And it includes me.

I've been thinking to myself that,I already qhatam Qur'an for like 3 times but honestly I never knew the real content of Qur'an. Or even a words of it. I only know how to read it correctly using the proper tajwid but never knew what is their meaning. During our childhood, our ustaz never stressed to us that we need to know what is the meaning of Qur'an, only we should know how to read it properly. But I'm not blaming my ustaz for that. Maybe that is the way we are being taught in here.

Let us see how understanding the content of Qur'an really important to us. Imagine that we read a novel written in French. For those who knows French, they can easily understand what is the content of the novel is. But for those who do not, they just can read it without knowing what does the novel tells them.

And so, we see here now why we really need to know what Qur'an tells us. We often sees people who read Qur'an a lot in their daily life but still do a lot of sins in their life. Why? Because the belief to Qur'an and Islam is not strong enough since they do not understand what it tells them at the first place. Let them read even 100 times but if we do not knew what is the content, our heart is still empty. Islam is simple, but the one who makes it complicated is us.

And finally, for this Ramadhan, I have one things I wish to accomplish. I want to understand the whole content of Qur'an by reading the translation of Qur'an. And I hope by doing so it will strengthen my iman and I can be a full-fledged muslim. Insya-allah.

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My first entry using phone

I bought a new phone a few weeks ago. I am a type of person that thinks phone should be use as long as its functional normally and I'm really not fancy for a new phone after it has been released. Advertisement about phone really not works on me.

I'm using nokia 6600 for almost 5 years without bothering to replace it with a new one. Until at one point, I'm really fond to this one phone. I mean only this one, which is blackberry bold. I don't know why but maybe this is what we call as love at a first sight. hahaha.

I love the function of bb and also its design. I can see many of my friend bought phone like N8 or xperia but still, the only favorite function they use is like a regular phone, texting, calling, taking picture and guess what, it all same like my nokia 6600. It always give me a thought that why should I bother to change my nokia 6600 just for its camera?or its video quality. Really not turn me on.

Since I thought that the only way to make my new phone to function widely is to have my phone to connect with internet. That's it! That is the answer. But, alas, internet is really cost me a lot. My sister is using iphone and she had to bare a cost of rm80++ just to maintain a cost for internet.

And so, bb is really on a different edge. I realize that bb have a internet plan which we call as bis. It allows bb users to go facebook,twitter, email, internet browsing and bbm. For maxis, I currently use the bonus monthly package that only cost me for about rm20 and limited to 100mb. Hey! That's more than enough.

Bb also have a wide range of application to choose from. Although it cannot defeat iphone, but its still okay. Most of the application is really great and some not. Recently, I have found a new ability for my new bb bold which is to post entry using phone. I love blogging and to found out that I can now blogging via my phone really thrill me out. Its what they call as mail2blog. And now, I can blog whenever I want and whenever I feel like to do so.

Thanks blackberry!!
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